excerpts of my life... or something to that effect

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the radio monitor
i'm feeling: bummed!

this blows! i realized that during our sucky christmas party, & i suddenly remembered why i'm supposed to leave this shitty place... i can't win any major prize in the raffle!!! the only time i won was when i got an imitation vcd player that didn't even last the month! drat! plus i [well, all of us actually] only got our christmas bonuses, not the performance bonus. they said we'll get it next month after they re-evaluate each and everyone of us. well there goes half of that bonus... /me watches it fly away i'll be _really_ lucky if i ever get half of that... anyway, after the program was over, i had no intention of staying any longer, 'coz 1) i still lacked sleep from the other night's party & 2) there's no more beer to drink! how sucky is that!?! good thing my officemate who also lives in the Sucat area offered a ride home.

Saturday: as a consolation, we get to come in an hour late than our regular office hours. but guess what? i was an hour late! hahah! anyway, as soon as i timed in, i tried to do some work, 'coz i had to leave after lunch 'coz of my dental appointment. i got there early, and there were already a lot of patients lined up, so i had to wait. good thing i already had lunch before going there. but i was really sleepy so i took a two-hour nap inside the other empty room in the clinic. when i woke up, there were still some patients lined up, and it wasn't my turn yet! wow! after waiting some more, it was finally my turn. after an hour or so, it was finally done! my root canal is over, the molar has been filled, and it's good as new. i've already paid 2k as my first installment, [the RTC costs 6k!] and i still need to go back anyways 'coz she said that i need to have my other amalgam fillings replaced... bye bye christmas bonus!

Sunday: heh! i didn't sleep all day, but i just lounged in bed most of the time. later in the afternoon i went to my old highschool 'coz they had some sort of launching for an event next year. i got to see my teachers, our old room, the buildings... ahh... reminiscing time... but the program sucked bigtime! no coordination with the hosts, the powerpoint presentation was a mess, and they had the audacity to hold an auction! sheesh... we didn't finish the program and just went home.

song of the moment

I wish that I could fly
Into the sky
So very high
Just like a dragonfly

I'd fly above the trees
Over the seas in all degrees
To anywhere I please

Oh I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

Oh I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

Let's go and see the stars
The milky way or even Mars
Where it could just be ours

Let's fade into the sun
Let your spirit fly
Where we are one
Just for a little fun
Oh oh oh yeah !

I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

I got to get away
Feel I got to get away
Oh oh oh yeah

I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah with you yeah yeah
Oh Yeah !

I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah with you yeah yeah
I got to get away

I want to get away X4
Yeah
I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah with you yeah yeah
I got to get away

I want to get away X4
Yeah

I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah with you
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah


-- Lenny Kravitz - Fly Away

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the radio monitor
i'm feeling: happeeeh!

weeeeeeee!!! it's our Christmas party here at the office!!! *points at the pic on the right* see how excited i am!?! [huge props to my main man David and his Smart Amazing Phone for the pix]

i'm almost done with my work for today, so i have time to update my bloggie. yay! lesee... last night was fun, 'coz i got to drink free beer! wo0t! it was a surprise-advance-birthday-party for our dear friend/coworker Frannie. i can't believe she had no idea that we were gonna pull something off... [well, she had an inkling that something was up] it was supposed to be held tonight, but since our office will have our Christmas party tonight, they [the organizers] re-scheduled it to last night. it was a huge success 'coz her family & most of her closest friends made it that night. we didn't stay long [left at 12mn] 'coz we still had to go to work the morning after, but we were drunk! [i know i was... hehe!] good thing Anna offered to take me home...

...w/c brings us to today! i woke up with a nasty hangover & got to work an hour late. but all is good 'coz i got to do my work. [i already did the christmas countdown songs yesterday, so i'll have time to prepare my exchange gift for tonight] ooo, i'm all giddy with the alcohol [from last night] and coffee. [had a tall caffé mocha from Starbucks after lunch] hope i'll win a major prize at the raffle... /me crosses everything that needs to be crossed again!

all the free food... free alcohol... all the gifts... and my Christmas bonus!!! wo0t²!!! sana araw² Christmas party!!!!

song of the moment

Deck the halls with boughs of holly,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Tis the season to be jolly,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Don we now our gay apparel,
Fa la la, la la la, la la la.
Troll the ancient Yule tide carol,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

See the blazing Yule before us,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Strike the harp and join the chorus.
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Follow me in merry measure,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
While I tell of Yule tide treasure,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Fast away the old year passes,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Hail the new, ye lads and lasses,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.


Sing we joyous, all together,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Heedless of the wind and weather,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.


-- Deck The Halls [Traditional Christmas Carol... duh!?! ]

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the radio monitor [Monster's Riot!]
i'm feeling: jealous

lucky stiffs! while the rest of the world will get to see Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King today/tonight, [December 17] my damn country will hafta wait 'til next year. [January 9 to be exact] all because of that stupid Metro Manila Film Festival. waaaaaaaah!!! screw teh filmfest! me wanna see Eowyn fight! *bawls* SM Cinemas are offering some premiere night tickets for the 19th, but it costs too much! [450 bucks!?! for a crappy moviehouse? NO WAY!] i would gladly pay such an exorbitant amount if it were to be shown on Ayala Cinemas. the other radio station [Magic 89.9] will have their own premiere over @ the new Eastwood Cinemas this coming 23rd. i wonder if i could get tickets for that... hopefully OPG will find a way to score some free tix for that major movie event. /me crosses fingers, toes, arms, knees, and everything else that needs to be crossed

yesterday, i got some GC's for Starbucks & McDonalds as part of the Christmas goodies being given away here at work every year. so, if you want some free mocha fraps or Quarter Pounder Meals, be _really²_ nice to me, and i might treat you... hah!

song of the moment

I don't need to fall at your feet
Just 'cause you cut me to the bone
And I won't miss the way that you kiss me
We were never carved in stone
If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself..

I'll get over you.. I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking
I am the king of wishful thinking

I refuse to give in to my blues
That's not how it's going to be
And I deny the tears in my eyes
I don't want to let you see.. no
That you have made a hole in my heart
And now I've got to fool myself..

I'll get over you.. I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking..
I'll get over you.. I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking

I will never, never shed a tear for you
I'll get over you

If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself..

I'll get over you.. I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking
I'm the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you.. I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
But I won't shed a tear for you
I'll be the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you..
I'll pretend my heart's still beating
'cause I've got no more tears for you
I'm the king of wishful thinking..
I'll get over you.. I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking


-- Go West - King of Wishful Thinking

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the radio monitor [altho i can barely hear it]
i'm feeling: hot! [not _that_ kind of hot, you perv! ]

damn aircon is busted, again, for the nth time! i'm gonna stink in my pool of sweat 'coz i'm wearing an undershirt... gotta do something... /me runs off and swipes an electric fan from the other office aaahhh... that's better...

while waiting for the other person to finish his work inside the prod booth, i thought of blogging what happened during the past few days, so that it would look as crowded as my previous posts! bleh

Saturday: had a blast driving around Metro Manila using Jo²'s van. i had a scheduled dental appointment after work, and since i was going back here at the office anyways, i borrowed his van. plus it was raining that time, so commuting would be a hassle... traffic was horrendous during those hours, and the rain was playing around... good thing i'm in a van. i left at past 2pm here, and i got to my destination [Paco] at around 4:30pm! my dentist thought i wasn't gonna show up. and to my surprise, my younger brother and his gf were there for a check-up as well... anyway, i think i only have a few sessions left, and my root canal will be over before the year ends. after my dental appointment, i went back here at the office, 'coz we'll be playing badminton from 9pm-12mn! wo0t! 3 hours of badminton goodness... been a few weeks and a couple of days since i last played, plus my left shoulder was quite sore from playing table tennis a few nights ago, so i _really_ had to play so the sore would go away.

Sunday: need i tell you what happened? in the evening, all i did was watch cable and watched/replayed some movies [Men In Black II / Wedding Singer / Showtime]

Monday: we [OPG] were just supposed to look for our exchange gifts for our upcoming christmas party this friday, but we ended up watching "Ju-on: The Grudge". the movie didn't really scare/frighten me, just a lil bit. the annoying part is the other idiots who were watching the movie. there's this couple who were seated at the row in the back who kept on talking about the coming scenes. guess he already saw the film and was telling his girl what will happen on the next frame. Jo² and I just glared at him and he got the message and kept quiet. but there's this really loud group of girls [i'm guessing they're maids] chattering and just being too damn rude. all four of us were already shouting at them to shut up and just watch the movie, but they still went on with their noise! grrrrr... i was sooo pissed at them, if i only had something to throw... i seriously wanted to do this to them: --->

oh well... life goes on.

song of the moment

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine

You look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces, let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces, let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hands

But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces, let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces, let me rest in pieces


-- Saliva - Rest In Pieces

i'm posting at: home
i'm listening to: my mp3 compilation
i'm feeling: sucky!

this day/night, by far, is the most suckiest. [is there even such a word? ]

after being sick for two days, not being able to go out with friends, & working my ass off today [being a friday], and what do i get!?! i became a damn errand-boy!!!

i wanted to unwind and relax tonight, maybe have a nice dinner or watch a movie with someone. but that someone had other plans... so i end up eating alone, going home earlier than usual... on a freakin' friday night! waaaaaaaaaah!!!

so i just went home, wanting to play table tennis with my dad like we did last night. i get home, just to find out that they went out with my brother...

i don't like this... i don't like this one bit!!!

so what do i do? i go online, blog away, queue my downloads, crank up the speakers, put on my headphones, immerse myself in music, & wallow & muse about my miserable existence...

a few things that will make me extremely happy right now:

1. my very own DSL connection to [ab]use
2. Lord of the Rings: Two Towers Special Extended DVD Edition
3. lots & lots of blank cds [for brand preferences, check out my animelist]
4. a Sony MD walkman
5. a superb 5.1 speaker system / a kick-ass Sennheiser headphone


song of the moment

[this song is my song for you, and only for you. you know who you are. ]

You're my peace of mind
In this crazy world
You're everything I've tried to find
Your love is a pearl
You're my Mona Lisa, you're my rainbow skies
And my only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

The world will turn
And the seasons will change
And all the lessons we will learn
Will be beautiful and strange
We'll have our fill of tears, our share of sighs
My only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

You will always be - beautiful in my eyes
And the passing years will show
That you will always grow ever more beautiful in my eyes.

There are lines upon my face
From a lifetime of smiles
When the time comes to embrace
For one long last while
We can laugh about, how time really flies
We won't say goodbye 'cause true love never dies
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

You will always be - beautiful in my eyes
And the passing years will show
That you will always grow ever more beautiful in my eyes
The passing years will show
That you will always grow ever more beautiful in my eyes.

-- Joshua Kadison - Beautiful In My Eyes

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: nothing really
i'm feeling: so out of it!

man, i miss my bed already! spent too much time on it for two days... been at home sick with swollen tonsils and on/off fever 'coz of colds. now i'm feeling a bit better, hence the reason i'm already here at work. but i'm not in the mood to work, yet.

another week has passed since i last blogged eh? so what's been happening in my "walang-kwentang" life? let's recap:

Wednesday: after ranting the night before, went to work, did my job, then went out with Ayet for a nice dinner and talk.

Thursday: took a day off from work 'coz i wasn't feeling well when i woke up. felt better in the afternoon though, so i just used the time to clean up my messy room.

Friday: [can't remember at the moment what exactly happened that day. i'll just edit it when i remember...]

Saturday: what used to be just another half-day at work turned out to be extra-special, 'coz i met the 1st Philippine Open winner Mika Immonen up close and personal! w0ot! i wish i had my cuestick that day with me so he could sign it... oh well, i got his autograph and a handshake, so all is well. [plus he told me that i was "creative"! awww shucks! *blushes*] after that, i went to the mecca of pDVD's [Quiapo] with Ferds and got me the 1st season of Smallville. that night, i burned some anime cds for a trade the following morning. [got done @ 3am 'coz my cdrom drive was being stupid! ]

Sunday: met up with teh adiks [nald, ian, alvin & annie] at makati. had lunch there with alvin & annie 'coz the other 2 had some other trades to attend to. later in the evening, i dropped by my cousin's house to get some "stuff" 'coz his HD is getting filled already... heheeh! now mine's filled up!

Monday: work, work, work. after that, i met up with j3n9 in Makati to get my ube from Baguio! weeeee!!! had dinner, then coffee. [btw, i wanna see that uber-cute barista again... i think her name's Madz... i kras her... ]

Tuesday/Wednesday: like i said earlier, i was at home sick, so mucho bedrest, plus some pDVDs. [LOTR:Two Towers/Kill Bill]

...and now we're back in the present, the here & now. yuck! good thing there's free food for lunch! Happy Birthday Cel!

[no song of the moment, 'coz i'm not really listening to anything right now ]

i'm posting at: home
i'm listening to: an album [Meteora by Linkin Park]
i'm feeling: pissed

[i wanted to blog immediately after i got home, but since my brother is using the phone, i opted to write it down on notepad first, so i wouldn't lose what i wanted to say.]

/start rant

i think i'm just digging my own grave at work. i knew for a fact that my other boss was just waiting for me to approach him this afternoon about what i've been doing lately. it's entirely my fault really, and i don't blame him if ever he gets mad at me. it's just that with all the shit that's happening to me recently, i've lost my focus and i can't concentrate on my work. my co-workers aren't exactly being helpful either... *sigh*

oh, and do i have a sign on my back or on top of my head that says "let's make fun of me today"? damn! i know i already feel pissed because of what happened, but these idiots at work just make me feel more stupid... for the first time [if i recall correctly] i was fed up with the antics of my officemates. so i just sat there and told myself to shut up, rather than mouth off at them and make it worse. we watched the premiere of Intolerable Cruelty, [i would've enjoyed the film more if i wasn't feeling shitty] and was supposed to have coffee afterwards, but i'm still in a bit of a bad mood that i declined and just went home.

...and why the hell is everyone bagging on my hairstyle!?! [or me having "hair" on my head for that matter!?!] why don't you just mind your own fucking hairstyle and just fuck off!?! do i make a fuss or give a fuck on what your hairstyle looks like!?!

i want to die. right now.

/end rant


*song of the moment*

memories consume
like opening the wound
i'm picking me apart again
you all assume
i'm safe here in my room
[unless i try to start again]

i don't want to be the one
the battles always choose
'cause inside i realize
that i'm the one confused

i don't know what's worth fighting for
or why i have to scream
i don't know why i instigate
and say what i don't mean
i don't know how i got this way
i know it's not alright
so i'm breaking the habit tonight

clutching my cure
i tightly lock the door
i try to catch my breath again
i hurt much more
than anytime before
i had no options left again

i paint it on the walls
'cause i'm the one at fault
i'll never fight again
and this is how it ends

i don't know what's worht fighting for
or why i have to scream
but now i have some clarity
to show you what i mean
i don't know how i got this way
i'll never be alright
so i'm breaking the habit
i'm breaking the habit
tonight


Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit

i'm posting at: home
i'm listening to: WinAmp [Mahoromatic OST 1 @ 320Kbps baybeeh!!!]
i'm feeling: relieved

/me munches on some Reese's before typing [yum! me want some more! ]

anyway, as i was on my way home, Meg called/texted me and said she needed a favor and needed to come over here at my house. eep! my room is such a mess [not to mention filthy! ugh! ] that i'm ashamed to let anyone, much less a girl, here in my room. heheheh... gives me a reason to clean it up, and fast! /me shouts to myself "hayaku! hayakuu!!"

before i continue, a quick round-up on what transpired when i last blogged:

Friday: i had three "appointments" after work, all at Makati:

* 6:30pm - met up with Alvin/bluemist @ Glorietta to get blank cds for our blank cd trade.

* 7:30pm - met up with Reunion Committee @ Food Choices for follow-up discussion regarding Reunion-related matters.

* 10:30pm - met up with David & Jeng @ Greenbelt 3 for LFS of Master & Commander: The Far Side of the World. Jo would've joined us, but he's with his "friends" over @ Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. [i mean, where else would he be!?! ]

Saturday: still smarting from that one heck of a night, i was late for work as usual. i went to my dentist afterwards for my dental appointment, then went straight to Robinson's Place for the flop that was the RX Holiday Stick-On. if i hadn't been assigned to go there, i wouldn't be seen near that disaster! anyway, it was nice of Beryl to drop by, so OPG "took advantage" of it and got a free dinner/movie night out of it! nyahahaha! /me huggles Bebang while whispering "domo arigatou gozaimasu"

Sunday: go figure as to what i did after those two tiring nights... i only went out of the house to get a haircut later that afternoon. and because i hadn't really been "watching" animé for quite a while now, i decided to "marathon" an entire series. i did Nanaka 6/17 in one sitting! [12 episodes! w0ot!!!] it has a nice story, has no outrageous mecha/magic stuff in it, and it can happen in real life. it deals with the main character [Kirisato Nanaka] who gets into an accident, w/c resulted in her "regressing" into a 6 year-old version of herself. [she's actually 17 years old, hence the title of the series.]

i had lots on my mind that i wanted to blog about as i was on my way to work this morning, and also when i was on my way home from work, but i kinda lost them... drat! maybe it'll come back to me tomorrow... hopefully

and now, a friendly reminder from my favorite android maid:


Ecchi Nano Wa Ikenai to Omoimasu!!!

*song of the moment*

Manazashi sotto hitotsu
Darenimo mitsukakranu youni
Funwari jikan daka ga
Nagaretewa kieteku

Nee, kiito, negai kotoba wa
Sora heto todoite
Koukai mo namidea mo
Omoide ni naru hazu

Narande aruita kodo michi
Itsuka, itsuka kokoni kaettekuru yo
Naniganaku furimuitara
Hona kimi no egao!


Carefully, just one glance
So that no one catches me
Only the time, like a cloud
Drifts away and vanishes.

Our words of wishes probably
Will reach the sky
And our regrets and our tears
Will become memories of the past.

This road that we walked side by side
Someday, someday I will return here
As I look back inadvertently
Your smile is there.


Ayako Kawasumi - Kaerimichi (On The Way Home) [Mahoromatic OP ~TV Size~]