i'm posting at: home
i'm listening to: cd walkman [Daredevil OST]
i'm feeling: full
*burp* 'scuse meeh! 
thank goodness for the nice dinner i just had, [/me huggles mom for the yummy sinigang] or else i'd be mad as hell after what i've been through the latter half of the day... not wanting to remember the full details, let's just say that i've been chewed up and spit out by my immediate boss 'coz of some work-related shit.
anyway, what have i been up to since the last time i blogged? can't remember much, all i know is that i'm uber-lazy to blog. things i could remember are the ff:
i had the chance to meet Mandy Moore over the weekend. she had her fan's day last Saturday over @ SM Megamall. luckily, i knew one of the people who's handling the event, so me and Jo got to have PRESS passes. weeeee!!! too bad i didn't get an autograph... [so did 95% of the almost-angry mob] at least i got to see her pretty close. 
also that Saturday night, me, Jo & Jeng attended Beryl's party. 
i would've drinked lots, if i didn't have a small trade the morning after... but i did eat a lot! ooog...
i watched a flick last Monday with David & Jo. we were supposed to watch Master & Commander: The Far Side of The World, but the movie was too damn long [obvious ba sa title!?! 
] and we didn't want to end up going home late that night, so we just opted to watch Scary Movie 3 instead. damn it was funny! 
it heavily parodied Signs & The Ring, but there were other movies as well... and to my surprise, not a single Wayans was in sight! [i think they all "died" during the last Scary Movie] but it's still funny though... if someone asked me to accompany them to watch it, i'd definitely go with them, just for the laugh trip.
after quite some time, [almost three weeks i think] OPG played badminton again! wo0t!!! we were also joined by Paeng, Anna & Beryl. i had a great time playing, and i think i can say that for the others as well. although i was miffed afterwards 'coz Paeng was flirting with one of the owners of the resto that we ate in after the game, so we had to stay longer than usual... oh well... *shrugs* good thing it was a holiday the next day, so i just did a Jason Mraz. 
oh, and there's this new girl who's "annoying" me @ YM. she said she just found my YM nick and started to chat with me. we'll see where this goes... all she's done as of this afternoon is to annoy the hell out of me! i have little patience for "kids" [she's 3 years younger than me] who have nothing better to do than to bug me while i _try_ to do some actual work at the office.
*song of the moment*
All I ever wanted was to be at your service
But now I’m alone cause you were here and you’re gone
And all I ever wanted was to feel I had a purpose
But now that’s all gone
But if you could give me
Just one love, just one life
Just once chance to believe in my..
Just one love, just one life
You bleed for me and I didn’t get to notice you
Now I’m stuck out on a line
Bleed for me, I didn’t get to be with you
Now you’re stuck in my mind
All I ever wanted was to be what you needed
Cause something so strong, it could never be wrong
And all I can promise, is to say what I’m feeling
We’ve made it so long
But if you could give me
Just one love, just one life
Just once chance to believe in my..
Just one love, just one life
You bleed for me and I didn’t get to notice you
Now I’m stuck out on a line
Bleed for me, I didn’t get to be with you
Now you’re stuck in my mind
Just one love in my life
You bleed for me and I didn’t get to notice you
Now I’m stuck out on a line
Bleed for me, I didn’t get to be with you
Now you’re stuck in my mind
Just one love in my life
Just one love in my life
Saliva - Bleed For Me
i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the radio monitor
i'm feeling: convalescent 
what am i recovering from? depression, i guess... i was mildly depressed all day yesterday. actually, some remnants of the depression is still lingering on... crap!
i can't believe someone out there got fired from his work 'coz of blogging... go here to read all about it, and some tips on how not to get fired.
not much happened the week i blogged last... got to watch Matrix Revolutions again, but this time with my officemates, w/c made me appreciate the movie the first time i saw it @ Powerplant Mall; [THX rocks! ] had dinner with the same peeps the next day @ Chili's Greenhills; & picked up my brother @ the airport last Saturday afternoon. [yep, he's back from Kuwait...]
Jo² invited me to watch the Mariah Carey concert @ The Fort open field last Sunday, but i declined, 'coz i wasn't in the mood to go out, & i'm not much of a Mariah fan anyways... so i just stayed home and made a marathon-of-sorts by watching Smallville. [almost done with season 1]
monday night, OPG went bowling @ Greenlanes. been a while since we played, can't remember the last time... we also haven't played badminton for weeks now...
*song of the moment*
I don't know who to trust, no surprise
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts sift through the dust
And the lies
(Trying not to break,
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Everytime I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring and time between
And how trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me)
[Chorus:]
Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear, for the last time
I won't trust myself with you
Tension is building inside, steadily
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts forcing their way, out of me
(Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Everytime I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring and time between
And how, trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me)
[Chorus: Repeat]
I wont waste myself on you!
You! [x2]
Waste myself on you!
You! [x2]
[Chorus: Repeat (x2)]
You! [x3]
Linkin Park - From The Inside
i'm posting at: home
i'm listening to: Neon Genesis Evangelion S² Works
i'm feeling: good
that is my general sentiment as of the moment, although the things that happened to me would say otherwise: i had a sucky work week; [been late for the whole week! *groans* must change that...] no badminton; [actually since last week, 'coz David is in Batanes...] my root canal is still not done, [just got home an hour ago, after being drenched by the pouring rain while going there!] plus i got too much negative stuff floating in my head. [please, just go away & leave me alone! grrr...] 
<--- for the negative stuff
but there are also some things that happened for me to be thankful though: free dinner + movie night [LOTR: Fellowship of the Ring Special Extended DVD] over at Anna's place together with Jo² & Jeng last Tuesday; [plus i got to (ab)use Anna's DSL connection! weeeee!
] got to watch Matrix Revolutions on opening night [Wednesday, 10pm] at the Powerplant Mall @ Rockwell; [thankies j3n9r & Marge! we were "one" with the rest of the world!!! *mwah*] & the impromptu dinner @ Pizza Hut Megamall [@ the walkway branch, not @ bldg. B] with Jo², Jeng, & Anna. *huggles* [not to mention me being able to get some "stuff" since the 'tards are away... mwehehehhe! 
you'll never stop me fools!]
hmmm... the molar that's undergoing root canal is starting to ache... maybe i better drink some Ponstan 500...
*song of the moment*
Fly me to the moon
& let me sing among the stars...
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand...
In other words, darling kiss me...
Fill my heart with song
& let me sing for ever more...
You are all I long for,
All I worship and adore.
In other words, please be true...
In other words, I love you.
Fly Me To The Moon [Neon Genesis Evangelion ED Theme]
i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the radio monitor
i'm feeling: that same old feeling again... 
no time to look back at the day-to-day happenings for the past week... just that i went to the dentist again for my root canal, [still not done yet] worked my ass off at the office, and when the holiday weekend [Nov. 1 & 2] came, i just spent it at home with my parents, hanging out and talking about stuff. i was able to finish some animes that i was watching since last week. [Mugen no Ryvius & Abenobashi Mahou Shotengai]
i'm quite tired of what's been going on with my life right now... i know someone out there will shout: "then do something about it!" easier said than done, i grumble back... the problem is, i honestly don't know what i can do... maybe i do, it's just that i don't want to. why is that? am i afraid of change? is it because i've grown accustomed to this kind of lifestyle that even though it sometimes gives me incessant heartaches and needless worries, i still welcome it?
i am a very confused individual indeed. sure, like all people in this world, i also have needs and wants in my life. but because of some circumstances, i have been unable to remove myself from this dreary existence & stagnant slump. i may put on a happy face when i'm with others, but when i am by myself, i secretly wish that i could just curl up and die to escape this cruel and harsh reality. but then again, the other me would stop all those foolish thoughts and continue to struggle and live on... one day at a time.
*random song line* 'coz i am barely breathing, and i can't find the air... i dunno who i'm kidding, imagining you care... and i could stand here waiting, a fool for another day.... but don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price, the price that i would pay... -- Duncan Sheik - Barely Breathing
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