excerpts of my life... or something to that effect

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the radio monitor
i'm feeling: tired & sleepy

you'd be tired & sleepy too if you've played badminton last night from 9pm-12mn!

we were very lucky indeed... 'coz the last time we were "walk-in" customers @ Pioneer Badminton, we had to wait for 2 hours! i was forced to read old girly magazines [cosmo, mega, etc.] as we waited. when we finished off the old mags, we just watched the other players do their stuff. but last night was different. as soon as we got there after ushering for the premiere, we inquired if there was an available court. we were already expecting the worst, 'coz of the last time, but fate wanted us to enjoy that night, and so we got a court! yay! after that exhausting game, we went to Tropical Hut and i ordered the Spring Chicken Meal + extra rice. heheheh... saraaaaaaaap!

after eating, uwian na. i got home a few minutes before 2am. nakapag-online pa ko and got to chat a bit with my cousin who's doing school stuff... [yea right! ] i had to stay up for a bit eventhough i was dead tired, 'coz i ate a full meal.

...and again, 'coz of that, i'm late for work. ~uguu~ [so what else is new!?! ]

Officially Missing You
Tamia

[Verse One]
All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you

[Chorus]
Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

[Verse Two]
All I do is lay around
Two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

[Chorus]

It's official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: an album [linkin park's hybrid theory]
i'm feeling: tired

*sigh*

i'm almost complete with the re-installation and re-configuring of my home pc. [just need to get the updates from the website] i'm also done with the cds that i needed to burn for the trade. good thing i went home early yesterday so i was able to finish it off.

i had a chance to talk to vince yesterday [my HS classmate who is the "eternal" president] and he's so excited about organizing and planning for our reunion next year. he already launched our official website [go here to take a peek] and it looks nice. he's making me the content partner on the site, so it'll be up to me to figure out what stuff to put in there. honestly speaking, with all the things happening to me as of late, my interest with the reunion has waned a bit. but after having that talk with vince, i was re-energized. now i have something else to occupy my mind and time...

what else... i watched some movies with my friends the last two days. [League of Extraordinary Gentlemen @ Glorietta & the Warner Bros.' gala premiere of Legally Blonde 2 @ Theater Mall in Greenhills] actually, tonight we'll be having our own premiere for Legally Blonde 2 @ SM Megamall, and i'll be one of the ushers. but since i've already seen the film, i'll just do my job, and then go with my friends to play badminton. hope we can get a court @ Pioneer Badminton tonight... i need to smash away my stress & anxieties...

i miss talking to my online friends... but the thing is: do they miss talking to me as well? *shrugs*

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the voices in my head
i'm feeling: mentally exhausted

jeez! it's only morning and i'm "exhausted" already?! why is that? well, the voices in my head never stopped talking since they started over the weekend. it kept on tellinge me that i have to do this, i have to do that, blah², yadda²... *gaah* and it still is telling me to do stuff as i type away... will you just shut up for a few minutes so i can blog!?! damn...

i was installing WinXP Home Ed on my pc yesterday, and i managed to pull it off. didn't install the other stuff as i still needed to finish the cds that i needed to do for my trade. so while i was configuring the audio and modem on my pc, i was able to burn a few cds. for a few moments i was able to configure my _old_ modem [read: an ISA slot 33.6 internal modem] to work on WinXP. [w/c i didn't think was possible. ] but when i tried again after having dinner, it don't wanna work no more! waaah! and since it was already a bit late, i decided to hit the sack and catch some ZzZzZ's. [i'll take a crack at it again when i go home later] i had an uneventful sleep, and before my last alarm [set @ 7am] went off, i was already wide awake. blame that to the voices in my head...

since i got out of bed earlier than usual, you'd think that i wouldn't be late for work today huh?! think again! i got out of the house a few minutes before 8am, since i already heard on the radio that traffic was a mess @ Sucat interchange. when i i got out of our subdivision, i saw that the traffic wasn't really moving, so i decided to walk all the way to Sucat interchange. [pretty far for some people, but i've been used to walking anyways, and i _did_ walk that stretch a few times already in the past. go me! ] when i reached the interchange, i saw the cause of the standstill: MMDA's demolition job [a.k.a. Sidewalk Clearing Operations] was the culprit. methinks they started over the weekend, [i already saw the partially demolished structures last Saturday before going to work] and i guess they're just finishing up. the other cause of the traffic was the peeps who had been directly affected with the operations. they were staging some sort of a rally/protest, complete with picket signs and megaphone-blaring individuals calling out for justice and proper implementation of the law, stuff like that. gimme a break! justice they say!? they're squatters, plain & simple. they have no right to be there...

anyway, 'coz of that mess, i'm late for work. heh... *shrugs*

and now it's time for me to go do it! [work, i mean... ]

i'm posting at: home [finally! ]
i'm listening to: my walkman w/c is hooked on to the speakers
i'm feeling: like a total idiot!

while i'm blogging, i'm also burning cd's for a trade that i was supposed to do this weekend, but since i've been coming home _really_ late these past couple of days, i've re-scheduled it. good thing the trader didn't mind. *whew* so i got my lazy ass to get the burning started right after i finished watching Bastard. [one word for this OAV series: BITIN! ] i was supposed to start burning an hour ago, but it was wasted by me trying to find an episode that i needed for the trade. *gaah* serves me right for not properly labelling my stuff, so i had to go through boxes & boxes of cd's trying to find that friggin' episode.... ~uguuu~

i was also supposed to have a dinner "date" with an online friend last Tuesday. we started on ICQ, already met once, & still chat on YM and text each other as of late. i was the one who scheduled it, but silly me forgot that my Tuesday was reserved for badminton, so i had to cancel it and re-sked to next week. i've yet to ask her when she'd like to meet up... /me makes mental note to text her later

Tuesday last week was not a good day for me. what started as a pleasant conversation with my mom over the phone turned out to be another litany of how we could make ends meet and that i never give enough for the expenses at home. i was a bit frustrated with this and i may have said some hurtful things at her. after that, i wanted to find comfort and solace, so i turned to 2 friends who happened to be online at the time. one was sympathetic and gave me some tips and advices, [he was kinda/sorta in the same situation as me, but not entirely] but the other one was not quite what i expected. let's just say that our opinions on the subject matter didn't agree, and when i "attempted" to shift to another topic, w/c made me make a statement that was intended to be a joke, she misread it and treated it as a serious remark and reprimand me for it. *augh* i was already pissed off with what happened earlier, and i didn't need to make myself feel much worse... but it happened, and in the process, i inadvertently pissed her off as well... crap!

Thursday night = Anniversary Party for the listeners. i was on video camera duty that night, and since the venue [the Forum @ the Podium]was a bit posh, i dressed a bit formal. [black long-sleeved polo that i folded up to my elbows + black pants] most of us who had duties [reception, setup, P.A.'s] went earlier so we could have dinner before the guests arrived. lo and behold! as i got there, i noticed that the waiters are all wearing black! [except for their polo, w/c is short-sleeved] fuckin' a! but i wasn't really _that_ pissed about it... good thing i had the vidcam with me everytime i was roaming around the place, or else they'd mistake me or a waiter and order stuff! as always, Parokya ni Edgar always brings the house down... the other performers were great as well. [Kyla, Nina, Jay-R, Side A, Arnee, etc.] since i had an assignment that night, i didn't drink that much. di bale, next Friday na lang ako babawi sa office... mwehehehehe!!!

oh, my hard disk has developed some bad sectors already... i've been reinstalling the OS [WinMe! i know, some say it sux0rz, but it works for meeh! ] a few times already just so i could boot up and do stuff. hope it doesn't die on me til i find a temp solution...

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the radio monitor
i'm feeling: crazy

a quick run-down on some of the things i did after i last blogged:

Thursday: tinamad ako, so i didn't go to work. just stayed at home, slept most of the day, & watched TV.

Friday: one of my bosses added an unnecessary pressure on me by making me do some work for him w/c i was supposed to do next week, as we had agreed upon when we talked last Wednesday. apparently he was pissed off, and was already making life miserable for some of the peeps here before he added me to his quota... i had no plans of going out after work, but tropang OPG wanted to go to Makati for 2 reasons: one was to drop by @ Hard Rock to see Katya Santos in concert, and the other was to take a peek @ Temple Bar to do an ocular, since our sister company is going to do an event there. so i tagged along, para naman makapag-unwind ako from the stress that the additional work gave me. nothing much to say about Katya's supposed singing prowess... she's just all boobs anyway. we didn't finish the whole "concert", [but we got to drink some free San Mig Lights though...sawap! ] 'coz we still had to go to Temple Bar. when we got there, Globe was having a party, so we stayed for a few minutes while my officemate took a look at the place. after that, we had coffee @ The Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. as usual, Emily was a sight to behold, altho ala sa counter, and she seemed to be preoccupied with something, 'coz she didn't seem approachable that night. oh well...

Saturday: met up with Litz [my ex] and her friends at Red Ribbon Megamall after work. she'd been asking me to meet up with her since last week dahil may bowling tourney ang company nila. i was supposed to meet up with a friend later over at Powerbooks anyway, so i agreed. while they were eating, [i already had lunch] we talked about stuff, caught up with what the other one was doing, blah², the usual... after eating, they went on ahead, while i waited for the friend that i was supposed to meet. she was a few minutes late, so when she got there, she just gave me the cds, lingered and talked for a while, then we both went our separate ways. when i got home, i intended to sleep, pero naabutan kong paalis ung mom ko with my kuya & ate. punta daw silang SM Southmall to watch Noon at Ngayon. sumama naman ako, kse they asked if i wanted to go with them. it was a good movie. i enjoyed watching it.

Sunday: did some household chores. slept, watched TV, etc. at least inde ako nagmistulang "palamuning baboy" tulad nung isa jan...

Monday: we had our Gen. Staff Meeting here at work. it's been quite a while since we had one, and since Anniversary Month namin ngayon, we had to have one, 'coz we got lots to talk about. anyways, not much good news... and bida na naman po ang inyong lingkod since kasama ako sa Top 5 sa late and special mention den since ubos na ang sick leaves ko. *sigh*

i guess that should do it... for now.

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: the radio monitor [RX Monster's Riot]
i'm feeling: genki!

although i'm a few minutes late for work, [w/c is really nothing new to me anymore] i actually feel great this morning. maybe it's because i was able to play badminton last night, and played bowling Monday night. all that i did with my officemates/friends. it's quite tiring, but i had loads of fun. nakakabitin nga lang... and also because of that 2-day sporting binge, mejo low na naman ako sa gimik funds, heheheh... tag-hirap na naman ang yours truly! huhuhuh!

oh, did anyone else notice something up in the sky w/c is becoming steadily brighter near the Moon? nope, it's not Venus, but Mars! here's something i got from my HS mailing list:

CLOSE ENCOUNTER WITH MARS

Never again in your lifetime will the Red Planet be so spectacular.

This month and next Earth is catching up with Mars, an encounter that will culminate in the closest approach between the two planets in recorded history. The next time Mars may come this close is in 2287. Due to the way Jupiter's gravity tugs on Mars and perturbs its orbit, astronomers can only be certain that Mars has not come this close to Earth in the last 5,000 years but it may be as long as 60,000 years. The encounter will culminate on August 27th when Mars comes to within 34,649,589 miles and will be next to the moon) the brightest object in the night sky. It will attain a magnitude of -2.9 and will appear 25.11 arc seconds wide. At a modest 75-power magnification Mars will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye. Mars will be easy to spot. At the beginning of August Mars will rise in the east at 10 p.m. and reach its azimuth at about 3 a.m. But by the end of August when the two planets are closest, Mars will rise at nightfall and reach its highest point in the sky at 12:30 a.m. That's pretty convenient when it comes to seeing something that no human has seen in recorded history. So mark your calendar at the beginning of August to see Mars grow progressively brighter and brighter throughout the month. Share with your children and grandchildren. No one alive today will ever see this again.

this is really quite something huh? i've already seen comets, meteor showers, eclipses [both solar & lunar], and now, i'll be able to see Mars without the aid of a telescope! such a milestone for our generation indeed! this is something worth looking forward to, & i'm so excited about it already... weeeeeee!

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: a CD compilation i made for someone
i'm feeling: bubbly

wat teh hell? "bubbly"? that's how a co-worker described me today. being "bubbly" is defined as "one showing good spirits" was i exuding "bubbly"-ness during that time, giving him the reason to describe me that way? i sure am not aware that i was being bubbly... as a matter of fact, i'm feeling kinda surly, but not so much though... more like being in between a good mood and a bad mood. maybe since it's a monday, i'm gauging the demeanor that i'll display for the rest of the week. i won't jinx it by wishing for either of the two 'coz it might turn out the opposite.

anyway, what have i been doing since i last blogged? oh, i got to watch Bad Boys II last week. i must say that that movie is the runaway winner for best sequel for the year. [if there ever was an award for that category ]the movie was kinda long [almost 3 hours] but it was all worth it! the story was solid, wicked action scenes, funny banters between the two lead stars, it's all good!

animé-wise, i was finally able to finish watching Excel Saga. i've started watching it two weeks ago, and it was sooo nonsensically funny, that i couldn't watch all of it in one sitting. i was taken aback after the last few episodes developed a "kinda-serious-but-not-too-much" storyline, but it fit nicely with the whole concept of the series, so it was okay. after that, i watched Jubei-chan the Ninja Girl: Secret of the Lovely Eye-Patch in one sitting. it's a light take on one of Japan's strongest samurais. entertaining is the one word to describe the series.

kuya was able to lend me some of his pDVD's over the weekend, so me and the 'rents were able to watch some movies at home. we got to watch Basic & Double Vision. the first one is still waiting to be shown in local theaters here, and i don't think everyone would like it, not unless the majority of the viewers appreciate brainy flicks that actually make them think and analyze the whole movie so they could understand it. [as i've proven in my previous posts, i do like watching these kinds of films. ] the second one, i'm not too sure if it was locally shown already. it's an HK flick w/c was released internationally. it dealt with the unnatural killings that had to do with some religious cult, and the two leads [a local cop & an FBI agent] who were assigned to solve the case. again, not for everyone's consumption, especially for those who dislike reading subtitles.

hmmm... i guess all i've been doing is watching stuff, ne? a good way to pass the idle time. i was also able to talk to some of my friends overseas, and we had a blast catching up on stuff. it's really nice to keep in touch with friends who you miss and miss you back.

m'kay, i guess this'll do for now. time to get back to the real world.

i'm posting at: the office
i'm listening to: a bunch of mp3s
i'm feeling: grateful

yes, i'm still alive, if anyone cares at all...

been almost a week since i last blogged because of a couple of things: i got sick [again] over the weekend, and i didn't have the proper mindset to blog about anything. now, did i intentionally let myself be sick again after being out for almost a week last month? hell no! what kind of an effin' question is that!?! let's just say that it was inevitable, since my mom first got the flu last week after we came back from the airport. then the virus passed on to my dad, and then i got it eventually. my older brother also got sick 'coz of the flu, and so did my friend's GF, so i guess the virus is everywhere these days. plus the weather nowadays is not helping at all. tough luck for people with low resistance to being sick, like me... *sigh* i was already feeling a bit better than yesterday, and since my fever went down already, i decided to go to work today. but being stuck at home since the weekend, i was not so enthusiastic to go back... i just psyched myself up with the other things i can do around here.

my wall-mounted fan of 4+ years conked out on me over the weekend. it gave me a tiny display of sparks and that unmistakable smell of burning wires. i brought it to the repair shop the next day to see if it can still be salvaged. lucky for me, the dude said that he only needed to replace something and he can repair it right there and then. so i said okay and i waited. while waiting, i was "treated" to a reality check on how my life is really much better than the rest of the general populace. i just sat there for about two hours and observed the lives of these people. man, all i can say is that despite of all the shit that's been happening to me, they've had it worse. but then again, they're still living, surviving through it all... i guess that's one lesson i've learned. all the hardships and harshness that i've experienced throughout my 25 years of existence is nothing compared to what those poor souls are going through, and i'm so ashamed of myself... i hate it!